Musings and Personal · Writing

I have a Cardiac Pacemaker. I have Atrial Fibrillation. No, I’m not Old

I was born with a heart defect called Anomalous Pulmonary Venous Return. I underwent a successful surgery at 9 months old, and have required a pacemaker most of my life for bradycardia.

About year ago I experienced Atrial Fibrillation and was treated with cardioversion. I’ve only had short, mild episodes of atrial fibrillation since that time. If my pacemaker hadn’t recorded these events, I would have been unaware of them.

A few days ago, I began experiencing daily episodes lasting 1-2 hours. At this point it isn’t severe enough for the doctors to address it.

I was frustrated and decided to write a poem about what an episode feels like.

ATRIAL FIBRILLATION:

Mottled hands
Shaking
Heart thumping,
Racing
Blood pumps,
Erratic
Burning skin
from within
Head heavy,
Dizzy

Head laying

on the table
Where my daughter and I put together pieces
of a Puzzle

I wish this puzzling heart of mine
Had the correct pieces
Fit in the correct places
and worked as it should

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